IF IT CAN’T FIT ON A SNOW FLAKE I DON’T NEED IT

IF IT CAN’T FIT ON A SNOW FLAKE

I DON’T NEED IT

BY SHEB SCHEBELLA

I laid in bed well, on the couch last night actually looking out the bay window watching the snow fall. I didn’t want to be anywhere else psychologically, my serenity was topped off. I however could not stop thinking that know matter how much snow falls or how many snow flakes I see it will never equal the amount of information in a double helix. I can not grasp the full meaning of life anymore than I can grasp the concept of God. I do know that at any given moment that I can alter my course; completely change the existence of my tomorrow. It is amazing the choices I have to write the up coming chapters of my life. Granted I shall never know the out comes of any redirection but, I do control the cast of characters for the most part, and I can set the stage and theme the script. It truly is amazing the amount of power a person has over there life, simply by channeling there energy towards there conquest. Sometimes I wonder if I can believe in evolution and God, I believe I can but, I can not actually explain it. I simply just accept that it could be, evolution is impossible for me to dismiss but then again so is the presence of God; in the end it will not matter what I believe, I will know or I will not know. The one thing I can do until I am confronted with such things is just continue to improve the quality of my life and to help others improve theirs. I do feel however that there are subjects that should be over analyzed and researched. I wonder at times what type of believe system I would have if no one ever spoke to me of God or spoke to me about Santa Claus or the Tooth Fairy. I wonder if I did not know of these things I have mentioned what my Free Will would be like or if I even recognized I had free will. Would life have a deep meaning if I knew nothing of God or Evolution? Religion does not give me comfort, for me it only reminds me of suffering, a fantasy story that turned horribly nightmarish, but evolution never let me down. I do at times feel what I define the presence of a higher power, something greater than myself, which I choose to call good. To me religion should be more of an appetizer more so than an entrée. To me religion is dark in its brightest light.
The snowflakes keep falling and not one of them the same in structure but yet once they land they all bond together nicely and make up something very beautiful, something they could not do on there own.